SOUL SICKNESS. GOT IT?

SOUL SICKNESS. GOT IT?
SOUL SICKNESS.GOT IT?
I, for one, can today readily admit I suffered from “Soul sickness” for a long period of time.
What is it you may ask?
To me, soul sickness symptoms are a revulsion against self and against the way we are living. Life became impossible, there was no joy. While I did not give suicide serious thought, I did know that if I did not change, I did not want to keep on living the way I was, I just couldn’t stand the joyless existence.
It was so easy to blame others and “circumstances” seemingly beyond my control for the life I was living. If you had the things going on in your life that I did, you’d use mood altering substances and behaviours to escape too! As K. Stanislavski was quoted as saying, “Anyone can blame; it takes a specialist to praise”, and I had hit a point that was the furthest it could be from specialist.
So what happened?
Simply put I got sick and tired of being sick and tired, and from a source I did not understand back then, found the courage to change. I sought “outside” help; and this happened through a strange set of circumstances. But “outside” help led me to getting my life back.
This soul that was sick? I found it inside of me and found it had always been there, but that I had learned/chosen to ignore it. It was a small quiet voice inside that I learned, with help, to hear and respect. It was the “ME” that I know today I was meant to be.
Today I live without deep rooted soul sickness. I take full responsibility for me (not you) and my actions. I seek direction on a daily basis and try to live a “BALANCED” life (free checklist at www.hopeserenity.ca. Today things are far from perfect, but I live daily with hope and serenity, gifts given to me by addressing my soul sickness.
There are many ways to get there. I know what has worked for me!
If you think you may be suffering from “soul sickness” and think you might want to make change, let’s talk freely about it.